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Sep
29

The boy I have always liked (also if you didn’t get the memo my boyf and I broke up a week ago) practiced conducting the orchestra today and I’ve never seen him physically look so attractive and later when my string quartet was rehearsing he took off his sweater and he was wearing a light lilac colored shirt and he has blue eyes, a tan complexion, really dark hair, and damn that color looks very nice on him

He came up to talk to me about music theory today and his eyes ahhhh

I need to stop

Sep
25

I really wish I was very beautiful

Sep
25

Modern art part 3

Sep
24

Boys come to me I want someone to hug and someone to kiss

(I’m single now and we were so close to 6 months and I’ll think about the things that he was doing that had been bothering me lately and that it was for the best and I’ll feel okay but then I think of one little memory, his smile, the night last week when we were lying on his couch and we recorded stupid conversations on my phone so we could hear what our voices sound like, hugging him, how we both cried so hard in the downpour on Sunday and in my car when I was almost hyperventilating with sobs and snot and tears and rain all running down my face and I could barely get the words out of my mouth, “can I kiss you one more time?” and then after that getting stuck in a fit of sobs because I knew it wouldn’t happen again and it was done and I had missed him for the past three weeks and now I’ll miss him even more but now I’m free)